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special dedication to LING JIA YING.
from dear jing(:

there will always be a time when you’re feeling down,
when you feel lyk you’re alone in the dark.
There will always be a time when you fall,
When you feel you can stand no more,
And you feel no one is there to hold you up,
To offer you a hand.
But always believe and always remember in your heart,
That there will always be someone,
Right there beside you.
Look on the ground,
And find another pair of shoes next to yours.
Look on the sand,
And find another pair of sandy feet next to yours.
Dun be dismal,
Dun be forlorn.
The stars align,
The stars will guide.


Dun pile your hw right up in your face.
It will only serve to suffocate you further.
Line them up in a line.
So you only see one at a time.
Concentrate,
And finish them one by one.
Dun be bothered by the others,
Dun get distracted by the others.
Dun disrupt your concentration and train of thought.
Whatever it is,
Whenever it is,
Just always bear in mind,
There’s always still ME. (:
-hugs-


uhhhh. that was found on jing's blog. dedicated to me! :D so sweeeeeeeet' right(:
thanks darling jing. it's amazing how you've left nanyang for the third year alrdy and we still keep in touch and all. and you have always been really really supportive of me like how you will always encourage me whenever i feel sad or whatever in dance and even in work and always go, no problem. thankyou(: so much. guess what. i still keep your message in my phone which you sent on the 17th of january 2004 :DDD it is the second oldest message on my phone can. the first was from my mom's. haha yay thankyou dear senior- though you have left nanyang and nymd. how i wish you are still here! (: loveyou. you're one great person.

Jerk It Out

Wind me up
Put me down
Start me off and watch me go
I'll be running circles around you sooner than you know
A little off center
And I'm out of tune
Just kicking this can along the avenue
But I'm alright

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

Shut up
Hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk too loud
No I can't hear nothing cause I got my head up in the clouds
I bite off anything that I can chew
I'm chasing cars up and down the avenue
But that's ok

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

So you jerk it out

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out!

aha this are the lyrics of the new dance we're learning right now! :D fun and all, a totally different style and look from carribean blue. it's about some toy and its story i think. yknow, jerk it out. like a jack-in-the-box(: it's really tiring cos requires alot of energy and stuff and we are all panting away catching our breath. but it's reallyreally fun! :D like how dance is. oh man i love dance to bits. haha and we're gonna choose one for the esplanade show! think this will be it since manymany people prefer this much much more to carribean blue heh since it's more fun and stuff. but iloveboth! (: CARRI-B-EAN BLUEEE. JERK IT OUT. :D
dance rocks(:

my mom is going kl in a few hours' time and we're gonna be alone in this house with my grandma for these 2days. okay it's only 2days but sunday gonna be hell. and my homework is like all piling up. haven finished this compo and there's another one to do. like huh. sigh.
i've feeling a feeling i cant describe. it's something that i'll always feel whenever my mother needs to go overseas for work or whatever. it's like, totally helpless and everything like i've got no one to rely on anymore and i gotta face everything myself. i realised how un-independent i actually am, always needing someone to rely on and i cant do anything when left alone. and i'll always get this feeling. i dont like it. i seriously dont.

-where did you go. i need you so much.

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403 was stuck in LT1 today for council invest. wasnt very happy since it's our last year and all. cant believe it's actually the number of councillors in your class and their posts that determine where your class sits. this is so unfair. but despite all that!-
the nanyang council was way cool today at the investiture :D

love sharon and jiayi! they danced really really well and they were like right in front middle and everything :DDD hehe modern dancers rock! (: councillors from other schools agree that their dance items so rock! (: so so proud (: novare res, their theme. making of evolution or something. cool.

i dont like council invest ): UGH why is 403 in the LT.
me wann the audi. audi audi audi <3
): SO SAD.

tmr is gonna be one real sucky day. okay it is supposed to be a really nice day tmr cos there's like quite slacky lessons with lang arts chinese pe math and assembly. (math not counted :P) but the thought of the chinese compre test tmr and running two runs round the school PLUS tennis assessment makes me want to faint. ):

it's always like this. when one thing's gone, something else comes along. like when i thot phew finally that dreaded test is over and then the next second comes the news of some other test or some kind of assessment. we can never relax ourselves and just slack away not even for a day man. there's always this thing eating at me. like i haven done something and i haven studied for this whatever and crap. there is forever this super heavy thing on my shoulders which i cant seem to shake off.

there are so many things coming up. lang arts portfolio deadline on week10. bio article review week9, which happens to be next week. math functions written assignment which is like due so long ago i've forgotten when and i haven even gotten down to doing it. like i can even understand what it's all talking about.

i have been living this term like im in a dream kinda thing and it seriously sucks. it makes me feel like everything im doing is insignificant and even if i dont complete my work it will not result in anything. yknow, like how it is in a dream. everyday i'm simply going thru the basic motions of life with no feelings no nothing. this feels so fake. like im not even living at all. there are like all these stuff blurring up my mind and everything i cant think clearly. last year i had the motivation to study! at least for term1 and 2. i really really paid attention for perhaps the first time in my life in nanyang to the tchers and everything cos i really wanted to do well. now i simply got no motivation no drive no nothing. im such a failure. if this continues im gonna have sucky CA marks which are definitely not gonna help my final results end of this year den how the hell am i going to achieve my wish no.2 in the wishlist from bottom up? i really really hope this will just be a phase im going through and it'll end off really soon. im getting distracted easily these days. way too easily.

i cant find a gown for prom night ):
nothing suits me. or shld i say. I SUIT NOTHING.
oh man haa shld wear hongzi there. whee.

haha im really surprised by the number of new tags there are :D HEHE :P thanks people it's nice to be remembered HAHA.

helen has this problem. she keeps wriggling her fingers. and i hope she sees this so SHE WILL REPENT. HAHA. shihao you better confess to this girl who is apparently from southview YOU BETTER. CHIT dear how are you! to hell with that bio test man everything gna be fine. remember that you always have me! <3 dear. jing ah haha say thankyou to me for your new blog HEHE and when do you want your programme! im alrdy missing nanyang and the dance studio when i haven even left. ):

life's kinda messy right now. not really in a mess kinda thing but not organised. i haven got my priorities right. and i cant keep myself away from the computer which is forever beckoning me with its open arms :D really broke and i seriously suspect im gonna pay this month's phone bill by myself cos i had seriously exceeded everything. it's time i keep a rein on myself man. and there's prom coming up. haven got a gown, for goodness's sake. i want my mom to come along to buy with me cos somehow i feel more secure with her ard but there is never time for me. and sometimes it seems like i can never have time for her. oh yah, speaking of my mom. she is getting into this thing of nagging and nagging at me every morning. like, huh. i seriously wonder where does she find such energies to say and repeat the same thing over again. so basically i have a bad start to every day. haha but oh well she kinda returned to normal after that. morning blues. and prom is such a headache. with gown, accessories to match and all. oh man. it'll be kinda fun actually, if i have the money the time and the ability to make decisions at the snap of my fingers. makeup! :D

sometimes you think what you perceived is right. well, you thought wrong.

okay people i officially declare my dislike for joshua ang.
apologies to friends and fans who liked him! i'm advising you guys not to. no offence or anything. it's just that i guessed many things happened that we do not realised. yupp. and now that i know he's such a jerk! never mind.
once again, NO OFFENCE. :D

oh yeah people this thing that many people are now into:
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Ling+Jia+Ying+:D
pick five to six words that you feel describes me! yes. thanks darlings :D

to jac: you rock too dear! <3 remember to keep smiling. and you always have me and the rest of us rooting for you! :D love ya darling.

i saw sylvester sim right in front of my eyes! :DDD

still cant believe it was him! and i actually took a PHOTO with him with my cousins! :DDD oh my god im so high now. HAHA.

okay it all started with this chingay parade of dream thing hehehee which i thought was kinda lame at first when they blocked the roads and stuff! now i think it's SO TOTALLY COOL :D my cousins and i went downstairs like how we always do every sat night to buy tibits and stuff and this thing was going on like super duper loudd. den den we heard fireworks! so we ran ran ran to see :D HAHA but by then the parade was alrdy ending! AND MY STORY HAVEN REACHED THE CLIMAX. ANYWAY! we were walking ard like trying to take in the sights and sounds and everything den yea! my dearie cousin spottedd SYLVESTER SIM :DDD she screamed his name and he was with his frends so he turned back and waved! den den den we started chasing after him HAHA and going gaga :D turned out he was walking to the minister mr. tharman :D and den after that! MY COUSIN PLUCKED UP THE COURAGE TO ASK HIM FOR A PHOTO! :D my cousin took an individual one with him can. den seeing that all the other gaga girls like us began taking out their camera phones and asked him for photos! he even took photo with families k! :DDD den he carried this little boy in his arms aww so sweet'. ANYWAY. den we asked him to take photos again! this time with me and the other two cousins :DDD YAYEE. HE'S DAMN COOL. <3 this time the first time im proud to live in taman jurong. he lives here too :DDD

new template.

gonna watch the video of hatfullofstars tmr. think it'll be really nice and hope it doesnt disappoint us :D not looking forward to the miracle one though. horrible memories of dropping that sash ):

go nymd.

carribean blue!

just walking home when big fat raindrops started pelting on me :D
i love the rain. i love the breeze. i love the smell of the rain.

i've got something for the rain <3 the cool breeze brought to you by the rain whisking past your shoulders. brings me back to the times i had. the times in primary school. in northvale! the times when i was truly truly happy.

i love the rain! and this sudden realisation came upon me.
i <3 all nanyang modern dancers :D
altho it's like only term one, the very thought of leaving nanyang and nymd at the end of this year makes me want to cry ): i knoe i'll definitely miss nanyang like hell. especially nymd. the dance studio! our home for the past 4years. where we laugh and cry together. oh man. and every single time i know i'll miss a place or something or someone even beforehand i'll end up missing it EVEN MORE. i want to treasure nanyang! treasure every thurs and saturday at the dance studio with my fellow dancemates <3 i love all of you so much man.
haha i wonder if anyone knows what i'm talking about? i need to brush up on my expression skills.

oh yah! prom is coming. so much work. gown, makeup, hair and stuff. oh man. but it gonna be fun man- i hope! <3

Sonnet. by christina rosetti


i wish i could remember
that first day first hour first moment
of your meeting me
if bright or dim the season it might be
summer or winter for ought i can say
so unrecorded did it slip away
so blind was i to see and to foresee
so dull to mark the budding of my tree
that would blossom yet for many a may
if only i could recollect it such
a day of days
i felt it come and go
as traceless as a thaw of bygone snow;
it seemed to mean so little, meant so much;
if only now i could recall that touch
first touch of hand in hand- did one but know!

this poem was written by serene darling <3 in my autograph book in primary six! 4years ago! :DDD love you serene <3 and everyone else we sent me their valentines' wishes (: and who gave me sweets and chocs! LOVE YOU DARLINGS <3

happy happy 14th birthday to dear haiwei! <3 miss you dear. loads! :D have a great birthday and be happy always k! :D will reply your letter soon! (:

happy valentines' loves <3

...eurus...
afer ventus...

so the world goes round and round
with all you ever knew
they say the sky high above
is carribean blue

if every man says all he can
if every man is true
do i believe the sky above
is carribean blue

...boreas...
zephyrus...

if all you told was turned to gold
if all you dreamed were new
imagine sky high above
in carribean blue

see. i memorised it :D all from my memory :P I SWEAR.

i am feeling really scared. i dont know what people are thinking about anymore. everytime i look at you you always seem to be thinking of something in your mind. you always seem to know alot of things. but you never ever tell me. my mind is going bonkers. i am imagining stuff which i hope only exist in my own vivid imagination. i hope what i think is not true. i know you've changed. but i hope, not that much. not to that extend. however, if what i am thinking right now is true, i seriously dont know what to say. i dont want to be used. i dont want to be a puppet. a doll for your own entertainment. so that everyone can have something to gossip about. i hate being used. maybe it was a mistake right from the start. MY mistake. but i cant go back in time. i guess all i can do now is hope. and pray. and i really really wished with all my heart. that you can prove me wrong.

i think perhaps only i can understand what the above is all about. i am going whee.
bonkers.

whoosh. came back from 2tests. one right aft the other. we were like, what the hell. phys and math somemore. but now we feel so free. haha like aft recess take 2 tests den it's lunch. kinda cool the way time flies.

but i flunked math. bigtime ):

hmmm. realised there are alot of friendship problems ard us these days and it makes one feel so sad. and it's almost always happens becos of changes in people. it's amazing how people change, really. perhaps just a few months back they were still your best pals and all. few months later you get so awkward when you happen to look at her in the eye. maybe becos everyone is progressing. getting to know more people. knowing more stuff. sometimes i wonder if it will make us happier if we dont actually know so much.
in my 16years of life there were really loads of trouble and headache. not to mention heartache. to do with friends. and haa i've only learnt last year to let go. to loosen your grip and let go. let someone free. and ironically in a way, you free yourself too. in the end we both become much happier persons. and we still stay friends. (: and not that kind of friends that make you cry. we become happier.

but but but. sometimes i really truly wonder if i have really learnt to let go.

i hate revisiting the past. it makes me feel so sad.

tag replies

hao: love yourself when no one else does is for uhmm. confident people who found their way out of the crap in their life. hhaa thanks but i hope i can say that soon. haha and it DONT RHYME (: and and and have you managed to convince yourself that joshua and shawn just rock? :D

serene: HAHA YES IM SO TOTALLY IN <3 WITH JOSHUA! AND SHAWN TOO :DDD YAY they rock my life man (: HAHA WE SOUND LIKE TWO HUACHIS (: BUT I LIKE IT.

chit!: hmmmm chit i dont think the person im talking abt in the prev post is her. but i SHOULD THINK I KNOW who you're talking abt. i read it yah okay and i'll talk to you online later! rmb our date :P and and and dont you think the both of us are so so similar?? HAHA yes i think you're an aries too :D like your personality is much simiar to that of an aries! (: love you man. and i've learnt to let go of what i've had held on to so tightly in the past. i told you before didnt i? now im much happier, in terms of her i hope you will, too.
but now im finding myself disappointed in people. not the same someone. but.. i dono. i guess some people do change and it's sometimes so sad to see the other side of her. i wish i can return to the past yeah. sigh haha chit YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABT RIGHT! TELL ME YOU DO! OR I'LL feel like a retarddd (:

okay gtg study bio now. ttyl guys. :D love.

had sharing session at dance today on the aftermath of production.
haha cheers for the production committee who did so much work *claps*

was at kap aft dance today with chit and wanteng TO STUDY! :D hardworking right. HAHA but i think im so distracting keep distracting chit from her math. haha she's so hardworking right SHE'S A TAURUS AFTERALL. ((:

bombarded bingyu abt the meaning of our horoscopes at kap aft that and wasted time thats meant for bio! hha but NEVER MIND. we gained alot of new knowledge, didnt we chit? :D IM AN ARIES like bingyu so she knows alot abt them (: HAHA.

okay from what i remember.
ARIES is a fire sign.
clicks well with fires! LEO AND SAGI :D which i dont really agree. only to a CERTAIN EXTEND i guess thats true. haha she said so much. about other horoscopes too. like taurus and cancer and pisces. basically we came to the conclusion that signs of wind are usually uhmm. not very nice. haha. no offence xp
and and and bingyu said ARIES-es ranks second when it comes to hua1 xin1- ness is there such a word never mind but yah! she said that like no. im like so LOYAL:D
and it's difficult to win an aries's heartt. and and and aries dont fall in love easily?

hha basically she said alot. and we decided they are all kind of true. bingyu shld go tell fortunes or something and look into a crystal ball. hha or set up a website about that so i dont need to bother with remembering what she said.

and and wanteng and i realised something about someone. like it's in her CHARACTER and just in her to be such a person. was talking to wanteng jus now. i dono why but the tears just came. it's such a pity and my heart hurts. cant we stay how we were?
like how it was. 3mths ago. when i can see and feel that we care for each other. SINCERELY. when i thought it'll be a friends forever thing. but things changed. YOU changed.

perhaps it's not too good when we know too much afterall.
ignorance is bliss?

i have a history in the past.

im so so so in love with shawn and joshua now can=))
they are damn damn cool and so so so shuai.
oh my goodness im fainting.

and and and i got this photo of joshua in the movie when he's crying.
oh my goddd. -and my heart aches

anyway! BON VOYAGE TO DEAR KERRI <3 all the best in shanghai. yi lu shun feng for tmr! :D miss us girl. cos we'll miss you miss you! BIGTIME. jiayou dear junior <3

feeling really worn out these days.
cant do anything without closing my eyes.
cannot seem to concentrate on anything right.
i find my mind wandering.
god. what is wrong with me.


cause' everytime we touch i get this feeling
and everytime we kiss i swear i could fly
cant you feel my heart beat fast
i want this to last- need you by my side.

cause' everyime we touch i feel the static
and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky
cant you feel my heart beat so
i cant let you go- want you by my side.

kerri:

all of us will miss you over here in singapore. in nygh. in nymd!
all the best to you in shanghai and although probably you wont even read this, i wld like you to know that you have always been a very special part of nymd and is always our very treasured junior <3 it has been a great year with you here in nymd. and you got the thing to become one fantastic dancer dear. promise to never forget nymd and keep in contact! make nymd and ahatfullofstars* a very special part of your memories.

dont stop dancing.
` dont stop that crazy rhythm.